sleep deprived.

So I’m writing this post having gotten 2 ½ hours of sleep in the past 38-ish hours. Why should my last week at UConn be any different from the rest of it? Sleep deprived, stressed, overworked… I really did spread myself pretty thin this year! The bright side to everything is that I think I did reasonably well on the two exams I had today- intermediate microeconomic theory and the hydrosphere. Both were a real shock in that they covered material that wasn’t included in the review or practice exams, but for some reason I tend to take tests well and think I did just fine. Honestly though, I could just be delusional from lack of sleep.

The only difficult part of staying awake so long was the hour drive up to Storrs and back. I listened to some old music, tried to get myself to sing along and be excited about it, but napped as soon as I got back. I would highly recommend sleep. I can’t wait til bedtime tonight!

So I’m graduating with honors (if my GPA and honors thesis are up to the strict requirements of the honors office). Like I think I’ve said before, I’d highly recommend accepting this honor if you’re ever in place where you had a choice to be a part of an honors society, honors fraternity, or just general high academically achieving club. I’ve made so many friends, taken classes on personal development and had so many opportunities that I otherwise would not have had (including my trip to Belize which was funded by UConn, my scholarships to New Zealand, and the ability to graduate completely debt free). Being an Honors Scholar also helped me get into grad school.

The thing I’m concurrently very inspired by as well as begrudgingly suffering from is the fact that my professors see something inside me that I don’t see in myself- they push me to be the best student I could possibly be. As of yesterday, WEDNESDAY OF FINALS WEEK- my honors advisor Dr. Peter Auster and another professor that I have a great deal of respect for, Dr. Frank Bohlen decided I should rewrite my thesis paper. So literally, I have to rewrite a 30 page paper that I’ve been working on September because the themes just aren’t capturing what I’m actually trying to say. I met with Dr. Bohlen, and he literally drops my thesis on his desk and goes “in a word, Chelsea, awful.” Thus, I know I can do better. The only issue now is time, as all of this has to be done by June 1st, which is interestingly enough the day I officially start grad school. Talk about overlap!

This weekend I’m really busy- I’ve got to rewrite this entire paper, move out of my apartment, graduate twice (tomorrow at Avery Point, Sunday at Storrs), say bye to a lot of my friends, and accept that I don’t go to UConn anymore. I’ve learned more about myself these past four years than I ever could have dreamed- I’d say I’m more accepting, worldly, focused, unafraid of a challenge, and have gained the ability to accept that no matter how much I try to pack into a day, somehow it magically all fits, even if that means literally no sleep at night.